gma passed away on sunday. cant believe she's gone so fast. firstly, she's only 64? and that i visited her only a day before she stopped breathing. we even talked to her and she responded a lil. that day, when we went, she responded only a lil. and the next day when dad told us that we gotta go down to tts again cos gma had difficulty breathing. oh man. i cried even before she died cos she looked like a skeleton. and only 3 years ago, she was like damn plump and healthy but smoked too much. ah shucks. anyway, i finally saw my eldest uncle's wife and children. haven't seen them for years.
when gma was abt to go, my gpa and i sat and cried near the lift area. he cried and told me my gma's going to leave us. that was such a sad moment. cos he's a man of few words. and that he looked like the saddest man on earth and with his cheeks sunken in. when gma was officially proclaimed dead, my aunties told me to inform my dad and uncles who were outside abt it. dammit. like, why did they ask me to do it?
ah. anyway, abt the wake. me and my relatives stayed there the whole time. so which means to say, i didnt have enough rest and i had to go to work still. but i did sleep for abt an hour or so behing my gma's coffin. it was so super damn cold in the morning. didnt sleep at all on monday night. cos i drank uncle's coffee. damn good. and it was a buddhist wake, we grandchildren had to burn those papers i dont know what they call it the whole time. when we were given breaks, we played mahjong all the ime. but only at night when most everybody's gone.
this wake allowed me to get to know this kuik family better. and i realised i really love this kuik family alot. cos everybody's so nice and all. seriously.
my gma gave birth to 6 sons. no daughters. im the 4th eldest grandchild. proud of it. alot of unknown family members and friends came to the wake. they were all pointing at me and saying"ya that's ah dee(my dad)'s daughter. ah yin(me)woah. she really looks like ah choo(mom) hor." okay. i smiled at them even though i didnt know them .there were alot of cool ah peks. many with tattoos and a few dressed quite fashionably.
there were so many ah bengs who were at the wake and they came again on the last day of the wake to help carry the coffin. and i just learnt from my dad that they are some gang members form this gang(duh). and their leader is my sixth uncle's sworn brother. and that sworn bro of his is under my uncle. and in my own opinion, that makes my uncle the biggest? another of my uncle's sworn bro is a bouncer. that's some cool shit. they're damn nice. they told my uncle not to worry abt anything and they'd help to settle everything. and dad also updated us that our oldest uncle and youngest are/were in some gang. all the ji xi and some bei hai tang? ah i forgot what they're called.
enough of that crap. all my uncles and small cousins are super duper hilarious ppl. they made me forget abt the sad things and all. but on the last day, we had to walk some distance with our gma who's in the coffin carried by the ah bengs to the crematorium. that was the point of time where all of us cried like shit. good thing gma blessed us with good weathers so the road wasnt hot cos the grandchildren could only where socks. anyway, glenn, racheal and mom's twin came. nice ppl :)
went for work today, wasnt very tired. and mom didnt go to work for two days and im glad benny's there. or else i'd seem like such an outcast and loner. and i think all the guys there are gay except for benny. seriously. cos mom told me. how interesting. hawhaw. and family and i slept from 6pm to 7.30am. that's the longest sleep i've ever had.
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amelia*
8 August 1989
punggol primary.
CHIJ SJC.
temasek poly.
Gap > Screening Room
